Monday, July 9, 2012

100 unknown facts about me



1. Have a fetish towards guy’s forehead
2. Love plaid
3. Attracted to “old” people
4. Love being in fandoms
5. Never a girlfriend
6. Nevertheless, a hopeless romantic
7. Want to be a singer
8. Dance to lose weight
9. My heaviest is 61 kg
10. Almost shook hand with Leeteuk
11. Distance myself with people whose names are soleha, alia
12. (For those who didn’t notice it) Am actually an introvert
13. Hate short people
14. Stood beside Jaejoong’s van before, with him inside of course
15. Not a picky person
16. Hence, not very “special”
17. Not good at expressing my feelings (especially anger and thankful)
18. Not very close with my dad
19. Have a friend whom I did not talk to from high school till now
20. Find it very hard to change
21. A crybaby
22. Both my palms are always sweating
23. Went to JYJ’s dressing room when they’re not there anymore ;(
24. Have a very awkward relationship with my stepmother
25. Don’t live a privileged life
26. Went through 4 interviews after SPM
27. Interview by MAIWP is the worst and I hate it so much
28. Cried so much after the interview by MAIWP
29. Thought of myself as underloved child
30. Had a tough childhood
31. Used to get haunted by jinn during childhood
32. Faint-hearted: level 9999
33. Fall in love easily
34. My sedara is a celebrity under the group called Max24:7
35. Had a crush on him before
36. Nearly got engaged when I were still a child
37. Long to see almost-got-engaged him
38. Love my eyes the most
39. Newly found love towards kids
40. Love cheesy things 128√e980 ;)
41. Like really, really cheesy things, even if it’s clichéd
42. Used to have a crush on my own teacher
43. Hate my primary school life the most
44. Used to prefer not talking
45. Want a Muslim Korean Irish to be my hubby
46. Want my children to be of mixed culture
47. Hopeless with fashion
48. Love circle lens
49. But till now, still don’t know how to wear contact lens properly
50. Very competitive especially in academics
51. Very self-conscious
52. Love clean-cut males
53. Metrosexual? Oh yes!
54. Support bromance
55. Not as innocent as I look
56. Perverted, at times
57. My first flight is when I’m 20
58. Sleeping is a priority
59. Lose my mind when the clock hits 12 am
60. Very possessive
61. Hence, obsessive
62. Hate when my things are being touched by others without permission
63. Have trouble sleeping at new places
64. Out of all my encounter with cats, I cried for most of them
65. Enjoy karaoke-ing
66. Attracted to guys with baby face
67. Attracted to guys with small eyes, single eye-lidded most preferably
68. Attracted to Korean-style guys
69. Chinese guys >>> Malay guys
70. A camwhore
71. Featured in a Youtube video, singing Sorry Sorry (a collaboration)
72. Love cooking show
73. Hate people who have no backbone
74. Attracted to leaders
75. Think that leaders have this charismatic aura
76. Feel safe around them
77. Hate talking about money
78. Curse when extremely mad
79. Want to be a doctor because of my nose bleed incident
80. Just don’t believe the too-good-to-be-true guy (e.g Dato’ Fazley, Nichkhun)
81. Gets bored quickly
82. Love baseball, but hates it as well..it brings bad memory
83. Has a penchant for 175++cm guys :)
84. Claps loudly while laughing at real funny stuffs
85. Super huge crush on OYS, still am
86. Narcissist
87. Hence, have a habit of checking out myself on the mirror
88. When I get scolded, I’m too afraid to talk back, too egoistic to say sorry; so I just stay quiet
89. Thinks Japanese language is sexy as hell
90. Love to learn new languages and go to the country to practice them
91. Attracted to men involved with fashion designing/cooking
92. Enjoys being lovey dovey
93. Love to stare at men’s hands
94. Absolutely attracted to men who have nice fingers
95. Feels good after helping people out
96. Hates guys who smokes
97. Love charisma (kindly refer to CL, Kai, Sunggyu)
98. Ulzzang babies are the best *o*
99. Wants a fanfic-like love life, with a happy ending of course
100. Slim and slender <3

i'm officially an IB survivor! \m/


Thursday, 5th July 2012, 2100


It started off with the night before the result being announced, in which I was still slacking around, watching some videos, reading some fanfics...doing other normal stuffs I do and not caring a bit about the result that will be announced tomorrow.

To add up to my not-caring mode, I haven't search for my ID slip in which I need it to gain access to my result, which would be posted online.

Then, the nervousness hits me. finally

On Facebook, my batchmates started to update their status. And I started feeling guilty.


So, out of impulsion rather than the supposedly compulsive act, I searched for my ID slip among the bundles of things I packed from college, in which I haven't touch since the day I reached home after clearance. (It stayed neatly and obediently at one corner in my room) 

Then, after 30 minutes of frantically searching (yes, the nervousness has finally taken over myself) alhamdulillah, found it. Then, being super-diva me, an update to my Facebook status: I found my ID result slip! *insert sigh of relief* -.-

Then, it begun.... I started feeling uneasy. All the what-ifs are coming to me, wandering inside my mind.
What if my points did not meet the requirements?
I did very badly for my EE, it was a total crap. What if the examiner refuse to read it and just marked it as CRAP?
What if my TOK essay got plagiarized or worst, being accused to plagiarism?

All I can do at that moment was to pray.... That Allah will give the best for me..




Friday (D-Day), 6th July 2012, 0600


After performing Subuh prayer, I just can't go back to sleep.  Therefore, I go online.

But, that didn't help me with my mental breakdown. It was adding salt to my wound. The updates, the tweets. I cursed every single one of them, secretly in my heart.

I nervously waited for the clock to hit 8 am. That time, the kids' class would start, and my mentor would not be able to call me and tell my result before the actual time of release.

Or so I thought....

I was busy diverting my attention towards anything other than the result thingy. Social networking sites was off-limits. Then, it happened..

My phone rang at exactly 12.45pm. The caller ID clearly stated the person's whose calling: Pn Satinah.
or better known as my mentor / EE advisor. *insert dramatic music here*

At that moment, I was mind-f***ed. Like seriously.

I didn't do anything except to stare at my phone, holding it and was shaking like hell.

Then, the ringtone goes off. I didn't answer her call.

The sudden realization hit me. I could have known my result by now.

And no, I'm not ready for that.

After the incident, I cried, screamed, tawaf around the house like a mad person. Yes, this is a true story. And no, there is no exaggeration whatsoever in the story.


I called my mom. And then my sister. Crying like a baby, they told me to calm down.

Phone call with ibu
me: ibu~~~~ (sambil menangis teresak-esak)
ibu: kenapa ni?
me: tadi mentor ayong telefon
ibu: lepas tu?
me: dia dah tau result ayong...mesti dia call nak gitau result ayong. ayong tak ready lagi T.T
ibu: then tak payah la angkat.. tunggu ibu balik, tengok result sama2
me: ok. tapi ayong takut...nanti dia telefon lagi camne?
ibu: off la handphone, nanti ibu telefon guna telefon rumah
me: ok..ibu, ayong takut la result.
ibu: ala..apa nak takut. ibu percaya ayong boleh. perut ibu dah sejuk dah ni haa.. time spm result dulu tu pun kan perut ibu sejuk jugak?
me: hmm *speechless* (terharu wehh ;_____;)
ibu: ok lah..jangan nangis dah..
me: ok..bye

Phone call with ayang
me: ayang~~~~~
ayang: kau dah kenapa?
me: ayong takut T.T
ayang: takut apa pulak?
me: result ayong kuar 8 malam ni
ayang: so??? hehh ni pun nak nangis ke?
me: ayong takut...nanti result tu kuar online. nanti kau tolong tengokkan eh?
ayang: yelah2
...

After ibu, then ayang, then comes the SNS.
I updated my FB, then twitter..

Then, something BIG happened.

Sir Razali commented on my status update on FB, "36"

I was like dsjbdahfdakhvh. Is this it? I was avoiding Puan Satinah and this happened?!!!



"36" Is this what I got for my total points? If this includes bonus points, it would mean I didn't meet the requirement, then it would also mean byebye Ireland.

A lot went through my mind, thanks to Sir Razali.

Fast-forwarding....

Since the result was to be released at 8pm, Malaysian time, I performed my solat maghrib first.

Then the clock strikes 8pm.

Everyone else started to update "alhamdulillah.." as their status on FB.

Everyone else..but me.

I decided to wait for ibu and ayang to come back home and view the result together, despite knowing my "result" already, thanks to Sir Razali.

At 9.30 pm, they came back.

And so it began.

I was stalling time, chit-chatting with my sister as it has been 2 weeks since the last time I saw her while having a late dinner with them.

Then, the question finally appeared. Ibu asked "Ayong camne? Dah tengok ke result?" 

I shook my head and told my sis to do it for me.

I left a tab open with my ID and personal code already keyed in. The only thing to do is to press the login tab and go the result section.

Before that, I warned both my sis and ibu that I may be only be getting 36, well, that's what Sir Razali told me.

Then...

I was plastered to the wall against the laptop monitor, when my sister is in front of the laptop, searching for the tab I left opened. Ibu was at the dining table.

"Dah tekan ke?"
"Kejap....*silence*....dah"
Ibu quickly ran over to see what's on the screen.
Ayang still browsing through the screen, up and down...when suddenly...
"40!"
Ibu turned around and grabbed me who was still plastered on the wall into a super-tight hug, kissing my cheeks non-stop.
I cried... T.T

Then, I look into the screen to see yes, my result is 40, indeed.

I was in disbelief. 37+3

I got A for my crappy chemistry EE?!!! and B for my TOK?!!!!

Never in my IB life would I ever dreamt of getting full bonus point. I was hoping for 1, at most.

But, Allah works in mysterious ways...
Alhamdulillah.


I was in the IB programme, and this is my story.
p.s I SURVIVED IB Y'ALL~!!!
p.p.s I survived it, and so will you! ^^